Finally Free

This year has been a year of spiritual healing. I remember saying to my thyroid doctor in September 2008 that I felt I had done everything I could physically (in my own strength) to do on her nutritional program to heal my gut from the leaky gut syndrome she had diagnosed me with 6 months earlier. I was now going to seek a spiritual healing path. Sometimes it takes us to do things in our own strength and fail to understand that we need to rely on God for everything!

So my path this year included many instances of freedom. God used many people, and many places. Some of them included His Word, the Cleansing Streams ministry, prayer services at my church, prayer and bible study with my small group, books and dvds on spiritual warfare and deliverance, my own prayer life and even video clips I found on the internet. I would say the theme of this year has been revelation. Once the Lord shows revealed something not pleasing to Him, I could repent and get freedom from it. My worship has grew from lukewarm to passionate once these obstacles were removed.

I was still fighting one area spiritually, the spirit of rejection, quite a bit so I knew I was not yet totally free. Doors opened in my life that I met people in my life that led to someone with a personal deliverance ministry. So I felt the Lord was leading me to go through this process I believe because He has been calling me into this ministry in some way.

This week I went through personal deliverance with Don Dickerman. A couple weeks before this appointment I would feel a sting on my foot and sometimes my arm. It felt like an ant stinging me, but there was no ant. Don told me it was quite common that the enemy knew his time was short, and it was a common effect of knowing deliverance was near. I also got a yeast infection, which I’ve only had a few times in my life. I also felt this was an attack to keep me from going to my appointment. I took the medication for it, even a strong oral one, and I was not surprised when the discomfort from it lingered longer than normal.

The deliverance process is quite simple. We prayed a prayer of repentance cancelling all the enemy’s rights to remain within my emotions, will and flesh. The holy spirit took up possession of my spirit when I accepted Jesus as my savior. Don then called all the spirits within me to line up in order of rank, and to remove their crowns and to come before Jehovah God and under His authority. Don instructed me to keep my eyes closed so I could focus on what these spirits would say through me. I had to ask for Jesus’ help to give up that emotional control to do so. I realize now after the session is long over that Jesus was there blinding me from seeing the spirits. Jesus knew it was more than I could take because all I saw was white light. Don said some people do see them, but I’ve always been very sensitive to dark things and will not even watch nearly any movie with spiritually dark things in them because I know I cannot handle it. I am a very visual person and I had a hard time getting any visual on the demon type, and didn’t see their name either. So it worked better when Don asked the type because the spirit would respond to the type more often in a yes or no answer.

Don told me to say the name that the spirit gave me, regardless of how weird it sounded. Don would ask and sometimes it was just silent. He had to remind the spirit that it was before Jehovah God and then they spoke through me. They didn’t take over my voice with another voice, but sometimes the answers came so quickly. I just spoke what I was given to my mind, and sometimes it was so fast that it felt like my mind didn’t really process it. Some of the names were spoken through me very quickly. I had to repeat them to myself to spell them. The spelling came but it was a slow process at times because I’m not an auditory learner, but visual. So, as we started, I kept hearing Adonai, Adonai, Adonai in my mind as he spoke. He called them forward and asked for the highest ranking spirit. And so I said “Adonai” when he asked for the highest ranking spirit’s name because that’s what I kept hearing in my mind (Adonai is the Hebrew name of God; I found out later when I looked it up. I knew it was biblical). Don rebuked that name, and asked if that name would stand before Jehovah God. “No”, I immediately answered and giggled. “What is your name?” asked Don. “Abomini” said the spirit from me. “Where are you located and what is your function” is the next question Don asked. It was in the thyroid and I forget the function. Don asked if it has any right to stay. “no” was the answer. More into the delieverance, the spirts became more flippant. It was a “no, pffft” answer instead of just “no”. He’d ask what kind of spirit it was, knowing the type would give him the clue as to who could be there with it. A bug, a bird, and a scorpion are a few I remember. Knowing the type, Don could ask if so and so was there under this spirit. This Abomini lied a lot because through the process Don found one spirit known to be a higher rank, so at that point Don commanded the spirit to repair and restore all things as God intended them to be and sent him back to the heavenlies and to the one inside of me to the abyss in the name of Jesus. As whatever spirit or spirits left, I deeply exhaled. There was no head spinning, yelling, or even coughing.

This was the process. It’s as simple as finding their name of the highest rank one. Finding out if they have any legal right to stay and then casting them out in Jesus’ name. Don went after the Prince spirits to find out who was in charge. What kind of spirit is it? Where were they located. Do they have any right to remain? In my case, none had the right. I had nothing like unforgiveness or sin holding me back, but these spirits are like brats…. They are not going to just leave on their own. Once commanded under the authority of Jesus, they must leave. A few of them gave fake names, one being Kikimama. I’m not sure how Don knew they were fake, perhaps it was the mocking laugh I let out on some of them. These brat spirits were quite funny to watch at times at how deceiving they tried to be, but they could not lie under God’s authority. And at some point I was laughing so hard that Don recognized a mocking spirit he had already come in contact with, Pointdexter. The spirit identified himself in agreement when Don asked. Another one gave a fake name, but it was really Kershus or perhaps Kelman. I’m already starting to forget the crazy names like that and Crycicacile and Telan. He asked location of the body, and commanded everything be put back in order and working as God intended before casting them out in Jesus name.

The spirits were located in my left ear causing confusion, top of my head, in my eyes causing disfunction, in my pituitary causing disfunction, in my gut causing the leaky gut. There was someone in charge of rejection, an emotion I had not yet had victory over. The spirit said it was in charge of walls. I believe it was in the gut as well. There were 3 prince demons each having 31 below them. Don only dealt with the prince ones making them fix the disorder or anything else wrong the killed, robbed or destroyed, back into what God intended and commanded them to leave with all its underlings in Jesus name. I had filled out a pre-session questionnaire which guided Don into what demons had destroyed , or perhaps what issues and health problems were in my family. One was alcoholism, which is not something I have ever struggled with myself, but I knew it had broken up my grandmother’s family when she was young. The spirits of alcoholism were indeed present when Don called them forward, even though I don’t struggle with the issue. Some of these spirits had gotten into my life through a generational curse, which is probably true for the alcoholism. Some had open doors through trauma: One was falling off my bike when I was 11 and getting hurt. That situation was in my mind when asked by Don. Some came in through anesthesia from surgeries. And, some was from my own sin. All of them answered how or why they were there when asked. They were on trial under God’s authority and could not lie.

Once we got through everything I listed on my form, Don commanded any unnamed demon and the 3 prince demons to leave. This was a more violent release and I yelled several times and then it was done, or so I thought, lol. I still had a pain across my chest. We went back and confronted this pain. It was one named Tarsus, located in the heart and responsible for heart disease (which 2 or 3 of my grandparents suffered from). He was asked why he didn’t leave when directed, and said, “eh, didn’t want to”. Don asked it if it was a renegade, which the spirit said , “ya”. Then it left uneventfully with an exhale when commanded in Jesus name. Don said that sometimes happens when a spirit knows its power has been cancelled and can only just “hang out not doing anything” so it brought the tightness and pain to my consciousness so it would be dealt with.

My session was then complete, and I was free~! Don said my countenance had totally changed from when I came in. Each day, and every minute of the day can bring temptation, but with God’s help we can walk in victory. We must put on the full amour of God. We must resist those doors of temptation and the devil will flee from us. They are still out there in the heavenlies, but unless I open a door through sin or trauma, they will not return. The generational curse ones have been canceled and paid for through the blood of Christ and cannot return. And, as I told Don, once you know better, you can do better~! (quote by Maya Angelo). Take the revelation God gives you in each situation and turn to Him. He will protect us from the evil one. God bless you all~!

Healed~!

As my spirtual journey continued this summer, I had the opportunity to attend a healing service with my friend the second weekend of August. At one point in the service, the speaker talked about God's spare part inventories. He spoke of someone who had visited heaven either through a dream, vision or spiritually and had seen rooms full of new body parts, just waiting to be prayed into use by those on earth. Anyone who wanted to come forward to pray for a new part was welcome to come up. So, I went up with maybe 2o others in the front. Each one was asked which body part they needed and prayed over. Once I announced my thyroid when asked, and was prayed for, the man was lightly touching my head. I felt the spirit of God come on me and the next thing I felt was feet falling underneath me. Someone was behind me and caught me, helping my body lie on the floor. You've probably seen this process on tv. Well, I'm here to say that it's REAL. They didn't push me at all. I just crumbled at God's spirit. I was aware at what was going on around but I didn't even try to get up. I just laid there on floor basking in the glory of God. Jesus sent a warmth over my neck and I knew He was healing my body with a new thyroid. Heat is a very common symptom of healing from the Lord. It felt like a gentle heating pad that was warm, not hot. In a few minutes, maybe 5, I felt like I could stand up again.

Later that day, I had a headache like I've had a few times before. It felt like I had too much medicine in my system, raising my blood pressure, which gives you the headache. I prayed over myself, laying hands on my head that Jesus would adjust my hormone levels and blood pressure. The headache subsided at the command of Jesus' name.

The next morning, I prayed if I should continue taking my Armour. The answer was immediate and a strong, "no, no, no, no, no". So, wanting to make sure, I asked again, lol. It didn't change. So, in obedience, I threw it all away. I went to my doctor the following week, and told her about my experience. She actually was very happy for me, and she told me to make an appointment in 3 months for a TSH blood test.

I've been off my medication for about 3 weeks now. My weight is stable. I don't have any symptoms that I had before and my energy levels have been good. I look forward to seeing my blood test levels in 2 more months~! Thank you Jesus for the healing~!